It was a Saturday, around 2 p.m. I was snuggled up on the couch underneath my favorite comforter, attempting to relax after an extra long and tiring week of work, while my soon to be 3 year old sat at her table watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. I had not long ago made her some pizza rolls and french fries at her request, and I guess her sweet tooth had surfaced and she was ready for a snack. About 10 minutes after I’d dozed off, (but not for real, for real, because I think that when you’re a Mommy, you’re never fully asleep when your kid is present. I legit hear everything!) I heard “MOMMY!!”
Can I take this moment to make a brief confession? You know how some people get hangry? Like, they walk around muggin’ and ready to body slam somebody because they’re hungry? I have thee WORST attitude when I’m sleepy! I didn’t even want to open my eyes, y’all! The child called me and I mumbled back “hmm?” in that real sleepy, irritated voice. The next thing I knew, I felt her breath on my nose. She must’ve called herself getting real close to make sure I heard her tell me that she wanted a snack. Actually, she said “Mommy, I want a snack BAD!” I took a deep breath, opened my eyes, and asked “Which snack do you want?” I was just trying to fulfill her request and the girl FELL OUT!
Now, usually, she’s very specific about what she wants, but it was around nap time and I guess her irritability sent her into a temporary inconsolable fit. I was BLOWNNNNNNNN! 🙄 Omg, LISTEN! Imagine getting up for work at 5 A.M and not returning home until around 5:30 P.M Monday-Friday, and then cramming in cooking, cleaning, laundry, doing hair, grocery shopping, personal goals, plus everything else that comes with directly being an attentive Mommy (cuddles, bathing, teaching, quality time, etc). Are you imagining?👂🏾 Okay, cool! Now, it’s Saturday! She done got me up at 7 A.M and as soon as I get one of those good dozes going, (the kind where your jaws are relaxed and you have slob dripping) she wakes me up and then launches into a full blown temper tantrum.
If I can be honest, I was frustrated immediately. Although only two, she has been articulating herself extremely well for a long time and displaying an advanced vocabulary for her age. I was sleepy and annoyed with her lack of communication in that moment. At this point, she’s screaming and I’m being the loud, dramatic, hollering Mama that’s probably pissing the neighbors off. Finally, I calmed down, and as I coaxed her to “use her words,” I checked myself! I asked myself “How good are you at using your words?”
It was an opportunity to remind myself that as parents, it’s great to encourage our children to use their words, but they deserve something other than frustration when they don’t. Parenting and adulting in general can get overwhelming, but the reality is that as adults, we still struggle sometimes with using our words. Sometimes, in moments of anger, sadness, disappointment, and being overwhelmed, we conclude that tears suffice as expression. Sometimes, adults have temper tantrums too, where we curse someone out, argue, and tear them down with our words because we speak from an emotional space instead of an effective space.
As a Mom, I always prioritize remaining teachable and being constructive as a parent. As a woman and human, I’m always prioritizing self-reflecting and extending patience and understanding to myself while on this journey of growth. I hope that this blog encourages you to self-reflect and even work on using your words if you realize that it is an area of struggle for you. For parents, I hope that it assists in increasing your patience with your children as they navigate through processing, understanding, and expressing emotions in a healthy manner. We can all benefit from forbearance. ♥
Disclaimer: The sentiments expressed in this blog are based solely on personal thoughts and opinion.